There are 2 types of girls I hate.

(might be more, but I've only encountered these 2 recently, so of course they deserve a mention)

The first type: The insecure bitch (this is my assumption)

So basically, Ben and I went to his friend HM's wedding.

We've never met the bride before la. We were there for their ROM (which was empty and they were late. Tsk tsk) there, I smiled to her but she looked away. Quite rude right? But it's ok, she's the bride and she must have alot of things on her mind - or so I thought.

Then came the dinner. The bride and groom had to go around taking pictures with every table and when they reached mine, i put out my hand to shake hers and congratulated her ( cos I thought she was too busy to notice my smile before, and I didn't want to seem mean or worse, bitchy) she then gave me this half fuck smile, and touched the tip of my fingers. At this point, I started to think that maybe she doesnt like me and the ROM incident was actually on purpose. So I told our friends who were on the same table " I think the bride don't like me" and everyone was like "no la, she's busy", "why wouldn't she like you, this is the first time she met you lor"

Ben is an ass. (what's new)

$*CCB#&KNNgt;€**

No fucking self control.

I hate men like that.

stop whenever you want to.

It's your life.

But only when you stop without me having to force it down your throat, then I'll think you're ready to be a father.

The father in law was telling Ben and I that there's no need for us to get fit now. "wait until after the kid" his words.

My mum asked "when did you have your last period?"

This month, if anyone else is also wondering.

Everyone is suddenly very interested in my sex life.

Which is weird and creepy.

That's not all.

I was reading the newspaper (which i don't usually do) and there's this article that says Singaporeans are in danger of disappearing by 2100 if our birth rate doesn't go up.

1.2 births per woman last year. That makes us one of the lowest in the world.

I like kids. I want to have kids. I would like to have 6 kids.

I just have to figure out how to feed them.

And I also don't wanna be too old when I give birth.

That's my first mistake. Not planning ahead. But then again, I couldn't possibly have impregnated myself.

So the point is, I will have kids. I will have as many as I can tahan. So hopefully, I'm doing my part. Haha

Everyone keeps asking if I'm pregnant already.

Not cos I look pregnant, or act pregnant but because I'm supposed to be.

Scary.

Nothing eventful the past week.

I'm getting old and boring.

Haha

Jennifer smsed me out of the blue to say that she read my old blog.

So that inspired me to read it too.

As I read each entry, I remembered what happened, how I felt, the joy and the tears.

I don't know why I stopped blogging.

I'm married! To Ben! Ok I just had to say that.

I wanna start blogging again so that in 10 years, I can look back and remember.

i just passed my 28th birthday.

it's depressing.

i'm getting older and i still have not acomplished anything.

on the bright side,

i got married to the (self-proclaimed) love of my life on 12 feb 2012.

we wrote own vows for the solemnisation.

i shall post mine here so that i will never lose it. (i also have it on my phone, in my email, i printed a hard copy, you get the drift la.)

"Ben, today i pledge to you what you've had all along - my eternal love.

As you know, i've always wanted to get married.

But that's not the reason why i' here today.

i'm here because you can hear me say "eternal love" and not cringe

you accept e for who i am, cheesiness and all

You have always been there for me, supported my every decision and i am grateful.

So if you'd let me, i'd like to do the same.

I will always love you

i vow to love you even when you're old, smelly and wrinkled

i vow to laugh, cry and dance with you whenever you need me to

i vow to love you even when i'm killing you in my head

i vow to be yours through the good and the bad

i vow to laugh during the awkward silence after you tell a joke

i vow to comfort, protect and honour you

i vow to take care of you when you finally get your knees replaced

i vow to love you the best way i know how, now and forever, to infinity and beyond

With this ring, I marry you."