Saturday, November 25, 2006

it has been 4 days.
4 very very long days.
not a single day i haven't thought about him.

i want Ben to want me back.
he's coming backfrom taiwan today and i'm scared.
i'm so scared i'm actually shaking.
i'm scared cos i want him to attempt to contact me.
but he might not. and i'm scared i'll just break.
i've been trying to be strong. for everyone. i don't want them to worry.
but this time, i might not be able to do it.

we were so good together.
one last chance. please.
but... i know my chance might not come.
i screwed it up.

but... what if we gave it another chance and it still doesn't work out?
i can't go through this again.
it hurts too much.

oh i give up.
fuck my pride and dignity.
i'll change.
please take me back.



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